Friday, 9 October 2015
I've been a little absent from this blog lately but with good reason. Sadly, Matt and I parted ways in August.
I'm not going to go into the whys and wherefores here on the internet but I can't let it pass without mention because this blog is quite a personal one and it's going to be a bit different from now on. For one thing, I've moved house and I didn't want to have to field any awkward questions like 'where's your lovely kitchen gone??'
It's an incredibly emotional time and I feel like I'm grieving to be honest - grieving for the life that I'd planned out for my family and for all the things that might have been. I have no doubt that leaving was the right thing to do but knowing that doesn't make it any easier just now, unfortunately.
I've been hiding from the world for a bit. The rest of my life looks so uncertain and too overwhelming to contemplate. And I don't mind admitting that I get frightened sometimes. This isn't the end of a chapter so much as the beginning of a whole new book.
And while I have worries - so many worries - about our future, I know that if I just focus on being the best mother I can be to Forrest then I won't let him down.
And that's all I care about really.